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Brian
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Ode to a Slut
Did I say I wanted to go home with you tonight
Did I say I wanted to fuck you in the ass
I don't want a piece of your cauliflower cunt
You’re a lying, thieving, fucking little tramp
You California whores piss me off so bad
Bragging to your friends about every guy you've had
You think you are the shit
Because you are part of a little scene
I just want to cave your face in with my size fourteen
If you could see my beating heart
You would see its beating hate
From all the lies and deceptions
You feed me when we date
Your best friend is a whore
She fucked fifteen guys last night
I was numbers two and ten
To the little sluts delight
You snort meth in your car
Through a straw in a jar
You are bleeding me of every cent I have
If you don't stop this fucking shit
I'm gonna through you in a ditch
And carve a note in your chest to your dad
Your last boyfriend he is dead
I put a bullet in his head
Because he said I didn't have the nuts to do it
I proved him he is wrong
Now he's part of your song
Guess I showed the little piece of shit
I don't give a damn about your family or your friends
They just a bunch of stupid assholes
Doin’ time in the pen with my Mom
The Empty Cup
One second of one minute of one day I sat waiting in the wide open lounge of the DMV. The day was obviously not so good. Events, dramatic to me, had happened to me that day. These events piled on the worries of the day before, and the day before that and the day before that. All the events of my life did not lead me to the DMV, but they all lead me to that moment.
I felt like the world didn’t have a place for me. Self pity consumed me in the one minute as my elbows rest on my knees and my head in my hands. I opened my eyes and stared into a Styrofoam cup that once held coffee. The cup was empty and looked lonely. I felt sorry for the cup. Much like I felt sorry for myself. Except I felt compelled to console the cup.
That’s crazy. I’d rather fix the cups problem, but not my own. I guess that I felt more adequate in my ability to console the cup than in my ability to console myself. The solution to the cup’s dilemma was easy. Get more coffee. I’ve known myself all my life and still have no clue as to what is wrong with me.
How can I fill myself? Where is the faucet or pot to draw from? It seems that like the cup I came here empty and am waiting for someone to pull me out of my cupboard and fill me to overflowing. That has yet to happen and I’m tired of waiting.
OLD YESTERDAYS
Those old tapes are playing in my head
Telling me those old feelings we had arn't dead
They say
"Though time has passed
And our hearts have changed
What we had is still the same"
But I ask
Do I love you?
Do you love me?
Or am I in Love with a memory?
I see no passion in your face
I feel no passion in my heart
Still
Those old ideas I have of you
Refuse to let go and depart
Our lives have gone on
but my head has stayed
To play in those old yesterdays.